my hate towards most people gradually became apathy

[decembrist_kirillov]

I don't even have a feeling towards any human being except my parents. I accepted the normies the way they are. They are in a constant need of validation as we all know. But I am feeling way above this primate feeling. I am burning inside but I do not know what should I do with all of those energy I have. I have my youth, my passion but none of it spent to a meaningful activity. I am lack of purpose.

My 18 year old self would laugh at my 24 years old state now. I had so much goals back then but all of it slowly died with the wrong choices I made about my career. Please do not get me wrong I still have my comfortable job and not so decent salary but enough for people like me who does not spend much. Still I have a feeling I have chosen the wrong path for my life, specially when you need to put xtra effort to interact with the other primates to function properly.

It is just emptiness killing me inside slowly, I feel I am in the age of deciding am I gonna live forever like that or make a U turn and do chaotic decisions.

[AmonGoeth]

I am feeling very similar comrade. We may live comfortably but it is not true living. We are denied one of the most fundamental human experiences of sex that gives normies the happy chemicals and fulfillment to thrive in their lives.

Instead we are just floating along, wageslaving at our jobs, spending money on copes and saving only for our own future survival.

Hence why I participate in this movement in my spare time as I have no other higher purpose to devote myself too besides vidya and drugs.