anyone also getting high on panic attacks?

[Mentally lost cel]

ı have been feeling terrible lately , ı am goıng ınsane , very suıcıdal , ı trıed to kıll myself by drinking a lot of antıdepresants , ı dıdnt die


how are you all feeling these days ? for some reason ı feel so sick, tired and dead , since ı had pnemunoıa

ı am trying to lift weights slightly , ı dont know ıf ıt helps or not

ı am plannıng to get into some kınd of rehab in summer in a better asylum this time ı guess , ı dont thınk ı can functıon more

this cant go on lıke this any longer

[General Alek]

don't die, we haven't teamed up against proudweeb yet

[General Alek]

I used to take antidepressants, and they made me suicidal

I was drinking heavily aswell

then again, I was suicidal in a different way before that because my mother tormented and damaged me