my hate towards most people gradually became apathy
Posted: 14 Feb 2025, 14:52
I don't even have a feeling towards any human being except my parents. I accepted the normies the way they are. They are in a constant need of validation as we all know. But I am feeling way above this primate feeling. I am burning inside but I do not know what should I do with all of those energy I have. I have my youth, my passion but none of it spent to a meaningful activity. I am lack of purpose.
My 18 year old self would laugh at my 24 years old state now. I had so much goals back then but all of it slowly died with the wrong choices I made about my career. Please do not get me wrong I still have my comfortable job and not so decent salary but enough for people like me who does not spend much. Still I have a feeling I have chosen the wrong path for my life, specially when you need to put xtra effort to interact with the other primates to function properly.
It is just emptiness killing me inside slowly, I feel I am in the age of deciding am I gonna live forever like that or make a U turn and do chaotic decisions.
My 18 year old self would laugh at my 24 years old state now. I had so much goals back then but all of it slowly died with the wrong choices I made about my career. Please do not get me wrong I still have my comfortable job and not so decent salary but enough for people like me who does not spend much. Still I have a feeling I have chosen the wrong path for my life, specially when you need to put xtra effort to interact with the other primates to function properly.
It is just emptiness killing me inside slowly, I feel I am in the age of deciding am I gonna live forever like that or make a U turn and do chaotic decisions.